“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

 Judy Garland

So what? Only teenagers are supposed to fall in love? You're experiencing something that you had before and was without for a spell. You remember how the thrill, the tingly feeling that being in love with that special person felt. Now you're there again, and the feeling is even more explosive as you've come of age. So go ahead and enjoy all of it, girl.

 ... deep ... it is ... and, that is rare ... happended with my high school sweetheart ... not with the man I marry ... and now again with my lover ... strange ... I loved them all ... my ex, am no longer in love with ... really wish it was different ... we share three wonderful kids ... not to be in the marriage but to keep fond thoughts of him ... I have none ... I still have a very special spot in my heart for my first love that am sure will always be there ... those inbetween were all nice but non as intense as the first and the current ... Sandra ... its like catching up with unfinished business ... know what I mean ... like we cannot stop ourselves!!

 ... sweet ... Thanks for sharing Sandra ... beautiful.
I am still in touch with my highschool sweetheart ... we are great friends ... we both married different people ... My option was to return home and get married as he had no interest in living here or stay here and break up!! We did have a long distance for several years but it was difficult ... I still have all the poems & songs he wrote to me and letters ...
My new love writes a lot too ... I love it.

 ... they are both very good writers ... my high school sweetheart still write and is working on several books ... my current lover is just a natural but no interest in the business ... he's very good at expressing his feelings and not afraid to do so ...

Our story is quite something ... we met as community volunteers  over twenty years ago and our organizations partnered on several projects ... there was some attraction that was never explored at the time as we were both married and not available ... my ex did accuse us of having an affair ... that was not true ... then I started having kids and pulled myself from active community work because family and busuness demands did not afford me the time for anything else ... so in the interim our paths hardly crossed except for the occasional community event ...
Well ... fast forward to recent ... I got divorced and he lost his wife ... and most recently we were both at a theatre event where we ran into each other ... chatted very briefly with the ordinary greetings and platitudes ... and went our respective ways ...

Then I got an email from a friend that his boss had a matter to discuss with me and sent his phone number ... I responded to my friend that I will follow up on it very soon ... I did not ... so my friend emailed again asking permission to give him my phone number ... I gave the go ahead ... I got very curious then and did phone and leave a voice mail ... he called back and sang me lullaby in a voice mail ... I was impressed with his persistence ...

Couple weeks later we met for lunch and talked for three hours ... we have both been very open and frank with each other ... it was sweet ... like we were friends forever and just picking up from where we left off ... since that lunch, we have had numerous real dates and it been beautiful and real nice ... he is the most romantic black man I know and so open about his feelings ... it fears me ...
He claims am sooo much like his deceased wife it frightens him too ... even our off handed comments, dress, dislikes, mannerism & attitude ... real strange ...

I do have serious reservations about the future and our traditions and cultural expectations ... am choosing to live in the moment presently Sandra ... maybe its selfish ... but at the same time everything so far feels so right and destined ...  .
He was home.. as in Africa ...  last year and met someone less than half his age ... they have stayed in touch ... this concerns me ofcourse ... I will not share my man ... and thats not negotiable ...

So this maybe short and bitter sweet ... and, am ok with that too ... strange most might think ... maybe ... am not even sure myself ... what I do know is that it is an awesome ride and we bring out the best in each other ...
Am taking the position that if it was meant to be ... it will ...
Thanks for allowing me to unload Sandra ...